Fallin, yes I am fallin...

When I said I'd go to a choir concert last week I didn't know it would end in meeting the love of my life and spending ridiculous amounts of time thinking about her. But ah. It sure did.

I seem to have a lot of friends in choir. I'm not sure why, but it's true. Either they were in choir when they were in high school or they are in choir now, but either way choir is involved in the mix somehow. I myself was in band, but I didn't make a lot of friends there. Band people are weird. But at least they're better than Orchestra people. Now those guys are WEIRD.

Kidding, kidding. I do have some band geek friends and a few orchdork friends and they're just awesome. There are a few stereotypical super-nerd types that are quite simply, constantly annoying the crap out of me, but you will find those in any organization. Be it band, orchestra, chess club, or pokemon club. They all have them. My sister is in band and plays the Tenor Sax, and she's the most awesome person I know.

Anyway, the point of this rambling here is I ended up going to a Choir/Band concert with an American freedom type theme on Saturday. My sister was playing in the band and since I was already there, I was going to give her a ride home. But she and her little friends wanted to go to Iceburg to celebrate whatever so I came along. I sat down at the table and stared at my cell phone while my sister waited in line for me.

Now with me it's not too uncommon for someone completely random that I can't remember ever seeing in my life recognizing me and coming up to say hi to me. I'm not sure why, because I don't usually label myself as being one of those popular kids, but somehow everybody in the flippin world knows me. And I know about 20% of these people. It's not a bad thing, I do like attention. So when people come up to me that I don't really recognize my natural reaction is to say "Oh hi! How are you!" instead of "So who are you?" since I don't want to embarrass myself or the other person.

So when this girl came up to me and said Hi Collin! I didn't hesitate but to say "Well hello, how are you?" And I hardly looked up from my cell phone. But then when I saw her out of the corner of my eye and realized she was attractive, I looked up. It took me a couple seconds to realize that she was someone that I talked to every day in school for 2 years. Duh. She was cute back then, but the girl standing in front of me was nothing short of gorgeous. Of the drop dead type. She had cut and dyed her hair kind of a brownish color, but other than that nothing much had changed about her appearance. In the few seconds that I hesitated while all this was going through my mind she said "Did you forget who I am?" And I said "Oh wow, no! I didn't recognize you at first!" So we talked for a minute and eventually she had to go. Short and simple conversation about old times and what-not. But for some reason I can't get her out of my mind.

So now it's 4 days later and I'm still thinking about her. I haven't had this reaction to a girl in like a year, and in fact I've been so bitter and hardened by the year before that I haven't really even brought myself to like a girl. But with this girl.. If at any time I wanted to use that cliché "love at first sight", this would be it. I guess it wasn't really first sight, and i've actually known her for years, but it feels like first sight. She was always a cute girl, but she never had quite this effect on me. Wow. If I wasn't so awestruck I probably would have had the sense to say something like "Hey we should hang out some time" and given her my phone number, but at that moment I was too busy sitting there with my jaw sitting completely open and a vacant expression on my face.

It's probably for the best that I don't talk to her again, since I am going on a mission in.. 2 months from Saturday.. but just wow. I had to say something to someone. And I figured that saying everything to anyone who would listen would be the best way to go about it.

Since this girl has actually read my blog before and there is a slight chance she could be reading, I probably shouldn't post this. But I think I'm going to anyway.

So if you see me staring off into space, chances are my thoughts are somehow connected to her.
And if they're not, then it's probably Guitar Hero or Pokémon.
But the first one sounds better.